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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 01:20:56 GMT

The Reader (2008)

Hanna Schmitz: It doesn't matter what I think. It doesn't matter what I feel. The dead are still dead.

Michael: I'm not frightened. I'm not frightened of anything. The more I suffer, the more I love. Danger will only increase my love, will sharpen it, will give it spice. I will be the only angel you need. You will leave life even more beautiful than you entered it. Heaven will take you back and look at you and say: "Only one thing can make a soul complete and that thing is love."

Teacher: What we feel isn't important. It's utterly unimportant. The only question is what we do. If people like you don't learn from what happened to people like me, then what the hell is the point of anything?

Friday, January 30, 2009

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 16:24:31 GMT

thats wt u do... u exploit whatever u have to charm the pants off people

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 07:57:57 GMT

I guess reading other people’s problems is the most impotent way to distract yourself from your own problems. Recently, there has been a question lingering in my head, should I be afraid of not reaching my limit more or knowing my limit more? I hate limits, limits are for the mortals…

Monday, October 27, 2008

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 11:40:07 GMT

A Sign, the language of the world in the mind of the Alchemist.

When you caught yourself escaping to the past, it is a sign for you to forfeit your control over your life.

When you caught yourself attributing everything to destiny, it is a sign for you to go through hibernation once again.

Please remember these feelings, these thoughts, save them into a vault. They may come in handy for the future predicament.

So Far so good, Too Far no Good

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:27:11 GMT

I am not afraid of losing things. I am afraid of never having things.

Future, Happy Endings, Long term Investments, all sound very nice, very wise, and very unrealistic.

Future is so far, happy ending is so childish, long term investment is so boring.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 01:14:53 GMT

goodbye 19 hello 32

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funniest movie ever

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 01:42:05 GMT

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Cheating

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 07:36:38 GMT

Cheaters

I understand cheaters, the mentality behind the cheatings and the art of cheating. You cheat behind the one you genuinely love, you cheat behind the one you no longer have love interest in. Everyone cheats, if you are not cheating you are not trying hard enough to play the game, the game of love, the game of happiness, the game of life. Cheating is the natural inevitable creation of boredom, an accomplice of curiosity. Guilt trumps cheating, but time numbs guiltiness.

Cheating is not equivalent to betrayal. They are two different things, but the deceive concept of faithfulness always tide these two together. People are wrong in that, faithfulness is only applicable to the relationship between god and their believers, since god is not real and such unrealistic concept can only be used in a context that is also unrealistic…like god and hope perhaps.

Second Chances

I don’t believe in second chances. It is not like I think it is natural to make the same mistake twice even though cheating to me mostly is not a mistake. However, staying in a relationship with someone dubious is just not worth it….the worry, the frustration, the sleepless nights. Unless someone enjoys the art of self mutilation, it is just not a wise choice giving people second chance. People will fall in love again with other people in other place, composing another love story.

I give second chances to myself to start over again, and there is no another second chance left to give to the ones who cheated on me. I got this from my mother.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:36:06 GMT

Insomnia is not simply a resilient torture in the night, it is the language of the world signifying a gloomy hectic day is just right ahead of you and a preparation to cope with a non-lucid attention deficit mind is on the top of the list of necessity.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 01:37:52 GMT

it was black rain yesterday, so work was off............how exciting.
I didn't do anything, i slept all day, watched some tvs, and finished reading a book - the book theft. You should read it, it is a great book about a German girl and her life with the jews in the time of the second world war.

Hanging out with my mom was fun. It is kind of amazing to have two very different people who have nothing in common and would not even be friends to try so hard to live and love each other. Perhaps, it is what blood tight really is, so useless, burdening, and human.

I dont have my own room. I sleep, eat, and do stuff on the couch. It is a upgrade for me thu, give that i had spent so many years sleeping on the floor. The downside however would be my back is being badddddd.....it aches me quite a bit. There are two rooms in the apartment, one is for my mom, and the other is for my sister. My sister just got married like two months ago, but we all decide to keep that room for her. I like the living room anyway. I sleep facing to the bathroom, and it supposed to be good luck for love according to Mr So Man Fong.

My sister seems to be very happy these days, and I used to think that i was the lucky one out of the two. I thought I have many stuff that she doesn't have...and later i found out she just doesn't want. She simply wants one thing, belonging. Perhaps this is like the sole purpose in our clan. We just do whatever it takes including leaving your own family to find, found a new one, a better one, a perfect one. I hope it would be my mom's turn soon.

Jealousy sometime gets the better of me. I would imagine how it could be like a cycle, and whatever happened to my mother will happen to my sister. It however is only for the therapeutic purpose, and in reality I think my brother in law could be a great guy born as one of the a love clans, not like our clan.

Rain just cannot leave me alone. It followed me from the most depressing yet exciting city to this another city with the same features.